Post by Nyxy ( 血の花 ) on Apr 27, 2015 22:59:52 GMT
Inside her spirit the grey world with in shimmers with the soft colors of the aura that surrounded her mother. Nyxy never believed in angels or an afterlife but seeing Mitsuko in her robes gave her a feeling of Ethereal beauty. The rushing down of water behind them as they sat on the sandy ground filled her senses giving her a sense of calm. Nyxy sits quietly listening to the sound of the waterfall. Mitsuko sits across from her watching. "Are you feeling any better Chi?" Nyxy shrugs "I feel better than I did coming back here yes, but I wonder what my next step will be?" Her mother smiled "you know when I was alive I dreamed of so many paths for you, including one in medicine, but secretly I had hoped you would one day paint like I." Nyxy smirked "sorry mama painting never got passed dey finger paint stage fer me. Though I do like to look at art." Her mother smiled "I know you kept my painting close, I am glad it was not lost, Yuki may tell you its significance one day, there is a hidden message amongst those flowers." Nyxy nods "yes and the woman hidden behind them?" Her mother smiles "we often hide our true selves to be what others want or need. Tell me do you believe the beings in your life want the real you?"
Nyxy thinks "I think I fear the answer to that mother, there is only two people on this Earth I have truly shown all the sides of me to, the mask-less. I know one looks out for me like a father but he is not my father. The other has my soul." Mitsuko blinks "You mean your heart?" Nyxy smiled at her "no my heart was an empty blood pumping vessel, even before being turned. My soul is where I keep the real me, my feelings my desires. Only one being has ever been able to touch that." Mitsuko nods "you know how I found out I loved your father Josef?" Nyxy blinks "no how?" Mitsuko grins "one night after a busy evening at the restaurant I was cleaning up with your father. We started talking, my parents left us to finish up tidying. Hours went by as we talked of art and music, then we fell asleep." Nyxy blinks at her "and?" Mitsuko smiles "and tell me, this love of yours this Jack, can you sleep next to him without jumping away or fear?" Nyxy smiled "I do it all the time...well I did before everything went to sh...er crud." Her mother chuckled politely "yes this world has gone to crud indeed. But yes that evening with your father falling asleep in a back stock room I slept peacefully for the first time ever. I felt safe and it was how I knew. I wish he had only known the inner torment I faced, I kept it from him because I thought he would not understand. But he would have done anything to help me, and I ignored it." Nyxy winces "It could not be helped...But I get what ye are saying. I haven't been up front with Jack, but mother he has his own burdens." Mitsuko smiles "then help him and let him help you. If you both truly love each other, there can be no more you and he, you both must be one. Let him in Chi, trust in the feelings you have and let that be your true armor." Nyxy hugs herself "you cannot call what you have for him love if he is kept from the real you."
Nyxy nods to her "you are very wise Mother, thank you." Mitsuko chuckles "I have had many years to think of the things I have done, to think of things I wished to have done differently. But it is worth the path I took to see you veer from the curse that has marred our line." Nyxy thinks "yes but now that I am this Kindred form, won't our line end with me?" Her mother laughs "no child Yuki is still alive and you, and one day you will create a stronger line with our blood and perhaps a little of your beloved. But you will have to trust that he understands your feelings, maybe even better than you know." Nyxy nods then looks around "this place is a lot wetter than before." Her mother stands leaning down touching the pool of water, "in times of stress one feels like they are being pulled under water. Your insides were filling up with this, but know water is a element of ease, once you learn not to let it over power you, you learn to float and let it carry you to where you need to go." She turns "I must leave for now, but you need to get to work. You have a center to rebuild inside you and not much time. Then you have someone waiting for you to open yourself to him. Do not repeat my mistake Chi, love him true and with all of yourself." She fades and Nyxy nods then gets up walking over to a pile of stones. "I guess it is time to rebuild..."
Nyxy thinks "I think I fear the answer to that mother, there is only two people on this Earth I have truly shown all the sides of me to, the mask-less. I know one looks out for me like a father but he is not my father. The other has my soul." Mitsuko blinks "You mean your heart?" Nyxy smiled at her "no my heart was an empty blood pumping vessel, even before being turned. My soul is where I keep the real me, my feelings my desires. Only one being has ever been able to touch that." Mitsuko nods "you know how I found out I loved your father Josef?" Nyxy blinks "no how?" Mitsuko grins "one night after a busy evening at the restaurant I was cleaning up with your father. We started talking, my parents left us to finish up tidying. Hours went by as we talked of art and music, then we fell asleep." Nyxy blinks at her "and?" Mitsuko smiles "and tell me, this love of yours this Jack, can you sleep next to him without jumping away or fear?" Nyxy smiled "I do it all the time...well I did before everything went to sh...er crud." Her mother chuckled politely "yes this world has gone to crud indeed. But yes that evening with your father falling asleep in a back stock room I slept peacefully for the first time ever. I felt safe and it was how I knew. I wish he had only known the inner torment I faced, I kept it from him because I thought he would not understand. But he would have done anything to help me, and I ignored it." Nyxy winces "It could not be helped...But I get what ye are saying. I haven't been up front with Jack, but mother he has his own burdens." Mitsuko smiles "then help him and let him help you. If you both truly love each other, there can be no more you and he, you both must be one. Let him in Chi, trust in the feelings you have and let that be your true armor." Nyxy hugs herself "you cannot call what you have for him love if he is kept from the real you."
Nyxy nods to her "you are very wise Mother, thank you." Mitsuko chuckles "I have had many years to think of the things I have done, to think of things I wished to have done differently. But it is worth the path I took to see you veer from the curse that has marred our line." Nyxy thinks "yes but now that I am this Kindred form, won't our line end with me?" Her mother laughs "no child Yuki is still alive and you, and one day you will create a stronger line with our blood and perhaps a little of your beloved. But you will have to trust that he understands your feelings, maybe even better than you know." Nyxy nods then looks around "this place is a lot wetter than before." Her mother stands leaning down touching the pool of water, "in times of stress one feels like they are being pulled under water. Your insides were filling up with this, but know water is a element of ease, once you learn not to let it over power you, you learn to float and let it carry you to where you need to go." She turns "I must leave for now, but you need to get to work. You have a center to rebuild inside you and not much time. Then you have someone waiting for you to open yourself to him. Do not repeat my mistake Chi, love him true and with all of yourself." She fades and Nyxy nods then gets up walking over to a pile of stones. "I guess it is time to rebuild..."